Confusion

Tomorrow is "Halloween day" at my work. Every year each department chooses a theme and goes all out in decorations and costumes. Then on the chosen Halloween day around 1,500 kids come through excited to see what was created and of course to get lots of candy. To prepare for this event My coworkers and I spent all day putting together a giant pirate ship as well as many other Peter Pan decorations. Exhausted and burned out I am now home attempting to download all the songs I can find from Disney's Peter Pan and finish up my Pirate costume. Between downloading music and playing with my dog I decided it was time to get on again and post another blog.

My thoughts lately have been confusing and muted to a point where I am unable to realize conclusions or even understand what is going on inside of my head. I have been worried about a good friend of mine, worried about my puppy and I suppose just worried in general. Actions I often take frighten me and leave me wondering what is what and where I am going. I am happy with my job, I love it honestly. At home I am still trying to find where I belong. I have my own apartment and at times enjoy the solitude but most often find myself lonely. My puppy helps, he loves me and brings me companionship when it is most needed. I am working on learning, working on growing. Each day if i choose becomes a trial and an adventure. I look for the little things, the things that make me smile. I listen to my favorite songs, create goodness in Photo shop and most of all I see my Nieces whenever it's possible. I love their hugs, love how they accept me unconditionally. I enjoy the conversation and time spent with them and my sister. When doing these things the confusion goes away, I feel safe and I feel okay.

This blog is full of random thoughts, doesn't have much of a point other then the items running through my brain typed out. Enjoy the reading...or not.